BELGIUM

AMSTERDAM,HOLLAND

IMMMMMMMMM  back!

First. FRANCE, AMSTERDAM(HOLLAND), BELGIUM ........ LONDON. THE UK.

Boy. ive beeen to so many places and lifes been good at the UK. It keeps my eyes

wide open to what the reality is. What life, is. What true people are.

2010. is almost coming to an end. 3 weeks? Todays the first week. 

Its crazy. Ive met new people. People come and go, People came and stay. Friends at the hotel.

Hotel life is crazed field! My collegues are weird people. My Collegues are smart people.

Exprienced, Eccentric...... also very weird. So weird that i dont understand why are they

the way they are. What a life. Ive met people from China, people who are Deputy Directors asking me to bring myself with him to China to stay. to which of course i declined. 

Looking back to 2009. Its been great 17. I met new guy, whos simply lifes screwed. SCREWED. and i mean it. Looking back at him ive realised how blind i was. So blind, i could be a bat.

This year, this new year - ive made up my mind to what the kind of life ive really want.

i focus on what i want, what the kind of being i want to be. I read lots of story book, whereas the live revolves around Manhattan, or the UK. London at its Oxford Street with TOPSHOP, RIVER ISLAND.

Manhattan where there are SoHO.

I love my family. But each time, i say something i result in a fight. A painful quarrel where 3 people come against to what i say. How i feel, and how i am being 'defensive' again.... when im not.

im clearly clear of what im doing what i feel, my thoughts. and Why do i keep blabbering, why do i keep insisting of my stand which they do not understand and would not hear of.

Im sad. Im being,again, trying to get away from them. Each time at work i wanna f up myself, my life, i feel like a FML. I wanna get home as soon as possible, and i meant literally, cabbing home. Taking a ride home instantly so i could get home to rest. Get away from so many plastics at work. 

Now home's a lil rough, cus we started offon a rough patch today. 

To You who dont own a name, to you who do not deserve for me to call your name.

He screwed me up. I thought i could rely on him. His words turn into lies. He get me off his house 935pm at night. not caring where im going, not bothering what im going to do, a girl at night.You let your family laugh at me. I cant understand why. 

You just screwed me up, when i needed help the most. you left me in complete lurch. Your sister constantly tweeting about me, what a bitch i am, what a complete fake i am.

to whom i am to you, to you it doesnt matter.

At last to what i am going to say, You'll never find another one like me, you will fail in relationships because of what you did. you are being a complete- COMPLETE Ass, ive ever met. 

A toast to you. Ive picked myself up, watch me one day.
i will laugh at you.

How is everyone doing? How is 2011 going to be? I wonder so much, im looking forward.

Life is crazy! Too much people walking in and out.

Im looking forward to the UK again. Very soon, ill be back to the cold Winter.

UK.. Ive missed you, and here i come.Again.

I'll be back. Soon.

sign off, Me.

Im blessed to be called to Host another Event, the end of week - on the Friday.

Apart for hosting, ive decided to sing too, as an inspirational to the teachers.

Thank you Mr Aziz(lifeskill department) who'll be e guitarist.
The collaboration will be a HIT.

why am i not fretty? 

Justin Kane, why does thing so have to fall into place now? Exams are over, and im spending time in school bothering and fretting over rehearsals after rehearsals instead of having class, and im able to see you during break at 1st floor. And why are you so cute?

and Whyyyyy are you able to come to JB stay over my house,
( we're gonna overnight my the poool side,LETS TAKE LOTSA PICTURES)

for Jassica Jolie's 21ST birthday? Thank You so much. Others would not have made that effort.

Cant wait to see you - tomorrow.

Thank you Joseph for being able to come.

Pictures (coming soon)

Love, Crystal Morgane

Had Great dinner in Wisma Atria, a level 2 good Dim Sum place for dinner. whats e name of the restaurant. god im hopeless.

i think its Tai Pong. or something. Dong Tai Pong?
Whats is family without food, laughter, fun and..... also, lecture. O.m.g My mum you can never compete the speech with. She tells me about boyfriends. dates. love.
im all.de-af.

Mum, Jolie and I are flyin to europe soon for weeks. So today we were out in search of gorgeous trenchcoat. There are really gorgeous ones at Zara also, DKNY and Warehouse...

Almost done with college. Thank god. left with grinding studies to go. A whole lot of Chapter 7 to follow. Imma sure im able to do it.

so before i left for weeks, and leave my blog post remainin e same:

I thank the Universe for giving me everything i need. Mum, A family. a face i couldnt complain anymore, clothes. my e5, gorgeous heels.

I thank the Universe for giving me everything ive wanted. and i am sure you will still give me more.
I thank for those who have left, you have thought me something along the journey with you.
I thank the Universe so much.
i am grateful enough, im happy for.

you know what?

'its time to groom yourself to be a sucessful person'

my foot.

failed people in your life.

you are dirty.a disappointment to your father

shameful and Just.a boy.

Today, i felt paralyzed. Yesterday i hurt my feet. Stepping on a sharp object is a good massage therapy, whereas the damaged blood vessel that made it worst - i couldnt walk properly. It felt good to be an ill person for a day. still, i made lunch. I made sardines and lotsa tomatoes and egg. Belle loves it, and we all ate lunch.

It felt lazy. must be the rice u know? the carbs. also the great tomatoes in my tummy. i layed on bed, so lazy, like a silly pig after meal. all they do is to take a nap until they wake up, hungry again, they eat. Online on my brand new e5, (threw the samsung away? can someone take it back? insignificant.) i fell asleep. it was a great nap.

Then....... Daddy came into my dream. ohno.... tears. and Tears. in my dream, it was him sitting there....

i cried, ' WHERE HAVE YOUU BEEN PAPA?? SO LONG PAPA..... WHERE DID YOU GO???'

In my dream, everyone was there. i cried and cried and cried.......  The dreams felt significant.... He is back again. 8 years i have been waiting.

i woke up, and it was all a dream.just a dream, and i asked myself, why? why did it have to be a dream???? 

It came to evening, Ungku drove me out for dinner. 

I came home, mopped the house a little bit. i cant help it, the tears were coming down. it fell like drops as i pull the mop forward and backwards.

It was a big impact in my life, the biggest hurt of the day.

he is the man. of my life.

WHATTT???

PICK ME TO DANCE SESSION

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 The last two weeks was all about Events. It spelt my week. Its the passion that lingers around.

ShangriLa called me to announce they gonna hire me for attachment. It was a gift from Heaven. As a trainee ive been hired to work as a Guest Relation Officer and also a front desker. Apart from that, im posted to ValleyWing where only prestigious guest goes.

Thank you for all the blessings. Thank you Father and Thank You God.

Train train and train in the gym, i spent lots of time with Mum. Today i cooked delicious chicken and rice wine with Cauliflowers for Lunch. 

I have found blessings in Mum and Mum always made me the most loved child in the family.

For 3 days, we have been spreeing around Orchard Ion. We spent a few hundreds in food in 3 days. The fun and happiness together is more significant that bein able to describe.

Mum Me Sis to a RESORT for 2 days and it rocked.
Finally my body put to use!

A goood sleep after a very long day.

i never knew i looked so elegant when i sleep.

 Huge isnt it?
ps: this is only the back of e garden

Dad's Mansion at Jitra.

 Found some old school pictures and this was a good TEN years ago.

Look how big and huge my Dad's mansion is. It was far West Malaysia where i come from.

We have a big huge garden where we play with Tiger (huge american dog)

Dinner served by the garden. Wasnt life great then?

I miss old times, would i ever get back.

Whats up? Blogging's been gone forev(a). Im back, only today.

Things has been pur-fect. Gorgeous neighbors, now my new BFF.

She's Daniella. Sweden Indian, totally huge masculine and gorgeous.
Shes back in Malaysia, we catch up last night. A complete party with lots of Pizza.
 Kahlua and Milk is brilliant.

So, ITE CCKs been well huge and gorgeous. My friendships with many people through mates has been alot alot. Loving my friend who always lingers around (Syam... Maths, Rafie) guys im really gonna miss you when im outta er.

MY HAIR'S DONE. COMPLETE TREATMENT, ITS SOFT AND NEAT NOW.
howd Mitt look.

Yes, School. Lotsa of event.
Hosting my last bit of events. I cant wait cus i really really love love love to talk through the mic/ i really deserve to be a DJ.

Waitwaitwait. FINALLY THIS IS THE TIME!

Today was SIA Airline Interview.

They came to school for recruitment.

I went for the first round, waiting for the dream call.
 id never stop believing. the dreams lingers and the hopes everyday keeps pushin higher and higher till i smile at every thought. thoughts then become things.

Hiatus, wait for me again.

Crystal's turned 18, Shes the woman.